Life

Im feeling fedup, no mood n down now. Just felt like posting something but dunno wat 2 post. Some foriegn officers made some comments on me this evening, and it just triggered me off, what a primitive nation. The Ceylonese Majs really made me lost respect 4 em, no wonder suresh was like dat. They really cant c others better or creative or even happy. Im d duty student this f@*king week, so i thought i cheered d situation up, many of d african guys r kinda home sick, they r capts who r 40yrs plus! miss their wife n kids, n some jr offr n younger than me also bored. me as usual cracked jokes, did some nice activities, most of the guys r enjoying, found out one namibian's guys bday is 2day, so planned a do wit d guys, one congo guy just got discharged fm ward, had 3 titanium installed on his palm due 2 football match injury(we r goin 2 semi finals - the World vs China) so announced his recovery 2 d guys n suggested we did something 4 him as well, 2day had our country's flag presentation so i prepared my own powerpt becos the instructors planned 4 us 2 use a single slide showing d flag only - duh? how'd u do a presentation like dat? The vietnamese, myanmar and nepal did d same also and had our presentations, director was hapi.

But later in d evening just b4 dinner, the farkin Ceylonese made some comments on me n the chinese staff offrs also not feeling easy abt me. Maybe they tink im too lebih2 n mengada2 n too loud. kalo aku bapuk takpe la. cipet.

Hmmm dat just patah semangat aku nak hapi n creative n being initiative. Gonna have 2 buat bodos, keep quite n stay low........ Im starting 2 get fedup of tis f@*k!ng place n ppl. Made me miss my freedom of speech n actions in my regt n during yam seng JD wit xsiska99. F@rk.

Sitting in my cold room, im looking at all my old pics in my PC and these caught my attention, nostalgic 4 awhile. Wanna share these:
Me n countloon as mat chaiee anggota GPMG fooling in kubu while Charles d dog IC GPMG conduct counter attack, if im nt mistaken..... hahahaha miss those careless free days. Nxt is the early morning b4 16k march. Yeah dats Morina bin Bujah. Which squadron was dat, Alpha rite.


Then this is d pendekar hutan belantara Udara. YO days kena ragging, was fun at times. Ustaq looks like Brutus (popeye's en) while dat's Zul Jepun with the saga steering. This was Lt Kol Rawa's idea of fun (SO1 AM dte now) then was Maj. He's a paratrooper with crazy out of tis world ideas. When i reported, he lapor 2 my room as Barman 2 help me unpack n clean my room. I smelt something fishy n later.... i regretted. We were unlucky 2 hv reported when all jerangkum chief raggers was thirsting 4 YO's blood. There were 6 of them living in. shit, they can take shifts. Normally after battling ghosts n amois who died in their 20s in the kubur cina infrnt of KL base, n after acting n recorded porno movies with ustaq (doggy n 69) they would take us 4 supper at Devi's corner, B'gsar. after kenyang, only then we knew y they brought bandages n plasters n sticks. We had 2 beg Devi dat we had no money 2 pay or go begging in the streets 4 money 2 pay. Most of d time zul jepun were excused of the pain becos kononye his a fresh grad, had no mil bckgnd so they takut he AWOL, me n ustaq well trainned 5 yrs. Cis, but i tink its becos they takut zul's dad who was the Ketua Polis Negeri Sembilan. Maybe SD shud know his dad. His a kelantanese named Nordin.

Dats me in my KL Base mess room with my JD collections (alot more cant be seen) I dunt hv JDs here 2 down my sorrows. KL was great, if i fedup, i would just take 10mins a drive 2 planet n drink alone on d bar n cuci mata, never got lucky - nt even once! I miss my ol room n place.


Now, this course i kinda had fun, but cant compare 2 YO Tac n G3 ofcourse. This is Lapangsasar Asahan's view from tapak OP3A, Fire Mission, dats d pic of my BC fire plan but can only see d smoke screen effect. Had a whole 4RAD regt as Close Sp n 1 Bti Med as Gen Sp at my disposal. Managed 2 produce an OK fire plan considering im an Air Defender(no field arty basic) but i supported d Bgd Comdr's attk Msn successfully. But biasa lar Arty, only IG or Fd Arty can score, nevertheless, enjoyed wasting tax payers' money on all the smoke, HE, Airburst n AP rounds. D adjt (CPO) of the regt was sweating 2 catchup wit d reqmts especially since orders were given over the set in english!

Hmmm never thought i would've becum like tis or even do these. I remember after SPM i would ponder on wat the heck i wanna do wit my life? But at dat time i really felt like becuming a doc, dunt laugh, its serious, dats y ppl always complain bout my handwritting. N after my dad n grandma died, i knew dat i wanted 2 do something gud in tis life, i wanted 2 give n contribute 2 d unfortunate ones, cure n heal all d sufferings. Go for red cresent's msn or atleast WWF. Then ATMA's interview came 1st n i was influenced by Suhaimi Saat n Nurulhasmadi to go 4 it, but they both left after yr 1, duh.... Ever wondered how ur life would turn out if u took a different turn or choose the other one instead? Y r we here, wat r we doin? Do we wanna be just like d rest? live a normal life? be the ones dat worked hard like hell 2 gain riches dat they 4got abt themselves n this 'thing' called life? dat they step on others dat crosses their path? dat they had no time 2 stop n take a gud look at life, appreciate it and live it 2 d fullest? 2 live d standard life of getting a gud secured job, married, hv kids, tied down wit responsibilities, then work hard 2become rich 4 kids' education n their own retirement..... and later die.